These things are always pretty hard to start. You know, a blog and all. I don’t want to ramble on forever and ever (which, by the way, I am totally capable of doing), but I want to give you a sort of feel for who I am. I think that when I write it sort of resembles how I speak, but often flows better because since I’m typing I have more time to think out what I’m going to say. You can really plan a post, but not always a conversation.
In all honesty, I’m not really sure what I’m supposed to tell you here. I want to be genuine, but I want people to actually read what I write, and online you’ll see a lot of us not always being our true selves because taking on a different way of speaking or doing can lead to getting noticed. That’s just how I see it sometimes. Anyway, my name is Elise, and I’m going to try to be real with all of you. The purpose of this entire website is just to help you out. I like the fact that you can read everything I write down because it helps my voice to be heard, and writing is so much more concrete than just a conversation because you can go back and reread whenever. Let’s just take a moment to appreciate the value of bookmarking pages online. It’s so useful (seriously though, I’m a bit obsessed with bookmarking things I want to go back and look at later)! My goal is to be that for you. I want to write something that will help others like me, and that you can go back to if you need it. But… who am I exactly?
I’m a fifteen year old girl and I have depression (paired with anxiety). I think I’ve adopted a way of thinking that really helps me with it. My depression is a huge part of who I am today, but maybe not in the way most would think. I will never let it define me, but my struggles have helped to shape my beliefs and even my personality. I’ve gone through a lot, and some days things can still get bad, but I’m proud of all that I’ve done to get here. Even through the mistakes I’ve made, I have learned. There’s no way around the truth. Depression is very hard to deal with. No matter how low you feel, I don’t think you should accept defeat in any situation. I’m writing this because I want to help you, even if I might not be able to directly talk to you. In my worst times, reading something like this might have made it easier to cope, and that should be an option to anyone who suffers from depression.
I’ve been wanting to write about my experiences, or even just write in general, but before today I guess I never had the motivation to start a blog. I finally decided I would because I actually was talking to someone (who I don’t know very well) online, and he sent me something that he had written. He wanted feedback, so I read through it twice, pointed out weaker areas and gave suggestions. I haven’t enjoyed writing in so long (mostly because of school) and this made me remember how much I liked it, especially editing. So, an hour or two ago, I knew I was going to write something. I had no idea what I was going to blog about, so I asked my dad what he thought I could do, and he told me a lot of other teens would probably be able to relate to me and that I should talk about my experiences with depression and anxiety.
So here we are… I’m looking forward to sharing my story, giving advice and hearing what others have to say! And (just to let you know) I won’t be always be focused on depression. I want to make a site everyone can enjoy and I’m planning on having lots of little things in the future. Here goes nothin’!